Grateful.

Today marks 6 years. I can’t believe it has been 6 years since my high/middle/elementary school choir teacher passed away. If I’m being honest, I have not been taking it well the past few days. It’s a hard time of year because her passing away was when I hit rock bottom in my own life and my depression was at its worst. Every year I think about her, but also about where I was in life at that moment which was not a good place.

But today is different, today it is Easter. This whole day has been filled with reminders of something so much bigger than my depression. It has been filled with love, grace, and joy. How beautiful it is that today is a time we remember the Lord’s resurrection. I am grateful for what the Lord did all those years ago on the cross to save me from my sins, but I am also grateful for how the Lord rescued me 6 years ago pulling me out of a pit and helping me to stand again on my own two feet.

I am still sad; I miss Mrs. Turner so much. She inspired in me a love of music and of worship, something I almost lost after she passed away. 

Today, though, I worship. 

Today, I love. 

And today, I am grateful.