The theme of lent for me this week was "helpless." So I decided today to look up the basic definition and got a few that I liked:
Helpless-lacking in or deprived of strength or power
-unable to function; without help
-unable to manage independently
Helplessness-powerlessness revealed by an inability to act
-the state of needing help from something
Well to say the least, these definitions perfectly describe how my week has been. It's been hell. I have had so much work to do, people to meet with, meetings to attend, teachers to talk to, and I am just drained. Not only am I exhausted physically, but I'm not doing so hot emotionally either. I've had so much on my mind lately and I feel like I'm just at this giant low point. Everything before spring break was SO incredible and I was bound to go a little downhill but I kind of feel like I got on a roller coaster and the super high and fast hill just happened. I'm hoping that I will be going back uphill soon because I am miserable. I am helpless. I have no strength or power left and I can't do this on my own. Lucky for me, I have a wonderful powerful God who can save me from my helplessness. I would be lying if I said it was easy for me to find rest in God, but it is really hard. I find myself so tired that when I try to spend time with God in silence, I end up falling asleep on the couches at TDU. I am definitely relating to the story this week of feeling helpless and I am hoping that by the end of the week I will trust God completely with this one.
PS-this has nothing to do with this blog post but I just watched an incredible and moving video about missions. I'll put it on facebook on Sunday when I get back on it because the link didn't work when I tried posting it on here. I encourage you to repost it on facebook, share it with your friends, let people see the amazing work that is being done. "Here am I Lord, send me."
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