This weekend was incredible. I spent the last 3 weeks thinking about missions in terms of my future. I was scared, afraid, but the Holy Spirit really convicted me this weekend. In the 5 missions trips I've been on, I have loved the people, I have served the people, but I have never directly said the name of Jesus to any of those people. I have never challenged my friends in their relationships with God; I have never verbally shared the love of God with others. I think I do a decent job at showing I care and being genuine, but that's not enough anymore. Despite my shy and introverted personality, I want to TALK about God. Seriously, what is the worst that could happen? 7,000 Christians die each day for Christ; at JMU, the worst that would happen is that I may be a little mocked or ridiculed. But seriously, who cares?! There's so much more to life than what others think about us. I want God to challenge me, to push me out of my comfort zone on a daily basis. My prayer in Nicaragua always seems to come up. Mr. Buzbee said "You are powerful." I am powerful, but only when I am filled with the Holy Spirit. Otherwise, I will fall, fail, and be anxious. The Holy Spirit is restful not anxious. (it is so incredible how that prayer in Nicaragua has related to SOOOOO much that has happened at my first year at school. God is incredible!) God uses every relationship in our lives to prepare us to stand before God. Evangelism is relational, the people that trust us, the people that we know, that is who we should reach out to. I am so overwhelmed and honestly, I am terrified. I have no particular person in mind to talk about Christ with, but I pray with every fiber of my being that God will place at least one individual in my life that I can guide through the Bible, answer their questions, and share about Christ with. I am ready. Despite my fear, this is my desire- to save the lost of the world starting with the people around me right now at JMU.
Set the World on Fire by Britt Nicole. Check this song out. It is the perfect song for how I feel right now.
"I wanna set the world on fire
Until it's burning bright for you.
It's everything that I desire
Can I be the one you use?
I am small,
but You are big enough
I am weak,
but You are strong enough to
Take my dreams
Come and give them wings
Lord with you
There's nothing I cannot do
Nothing I cannot do."
1 comment:
Caryn-This is so good. I am so proud of you. You have so much to offer and I know that the Lord is going to use you in powerful ways. I am excited to see where He takes you. PS-You should look at doing the World Race when you finish school :)
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